This is me - now...

Up until December 11, 2004, I took life for granted. I never really expected to have my life change so abruptly and definietly not so dramatically. On December 11, 2004 I lost my lover, my partner, my bestfriend. I lost my husband...At the mere age of 27, I was now a widow with 4 small children. This is me now. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to prove and what am I really about. I thought I knew this already but losing him has been one of the biggest challenges I have been faced with...

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I'm passionate. I LOVE TO LAUGH. I'm strong yet emotional. I'm independent yet needy. I'm a dreamer...ALL I EVER DO IS DREAM....I feel it's time to start acting on these dreams and what ifs...It's time for a change.

Friday, June 24, 2005

The Ex...

Ok so a couple of days ago I spoke to my Ex. Yes my ex-boyfriend from highschool. I haven't seen him in over 9 years and I haven't spoke to him in over a year. The last time we spoke he was pretty nice (oh I do have to let you know that we broke up on pretty bad terms) and we had a short but sweet conversation - sort of like this...
Me - Hope u r doing well...
Ex- Oh, I'm good, how r u?
Me - Just fine thank u...so what cha' been up to?
Ex - Oh a little bit of this and a bit of that. How 'bout u?
Me - Oh a bit of this and a tad of that...
Ex - Well, that's nice. Its nice to hear from u.
Me - Yes Its nice to speak to u again.
Ex - Don't wait another 8 years before we speak again.
Me - No, we should keep in touch. Take care.
Ex - U 2.
So as u can see, we were civilized, acted like adults and had a nice little conversation. NOW let me tell u about this last conversation we just had. It was such a disappointment. I actually ran into his brother, who happened to be just adorable. He was so down to earth, so sweet and just plain ole' happy to talk to me again. Which if we recall - I sort of, kind of, broke his brother's heart, so if he really wanted to he could have been a punk, but he wasn't, he was a true gentleman and even told me that he would have my ex call me so we could catch up. Sooooo yes, I get a call from the ex a couple of days later. I don't know what happened to this man in the last year BUT it sure as hell wasn't the same guy. He was arrogant, pompous, self absorbed, conceited...need I go on. He just kept going on and on about himself and the beautiful women he dates and how mature he is now and just a bunch of CRAP if u ask me. I don't know if he was trying to impress me (which he didn't). Or maybe it was all an act (that's what I think). He was just so fake and boring. I was so turned off by the entire conversation that I just had to hang up. If this was an act, I feel sorry for him, cuz I don't think he needed to do all of that. I guess I may have been holding on to old memories, u know, of the sweet guy who I was proud to say was my 1st love, my highschool sweetheart. The guy who would treat me like a princess. I dunno...its not that I wanted him again, its that I guess I wanted to bond with him onemore time and that sure as hell isn't happening. Wow, how people change huh?

2 Comments:

Blogger Desiree said...

People sure do change. Maybe having expectations sucks. I don't know.

I was just writing about my ex. We are friends again, and he's my sweet guy that I turned into a jerk because I broke his heart :(

Thanks for the compliment on Tannias blog :)

11:16 AM  
Blogger Desiree said...

update! update! update!

11:16 AM  

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