Just a little problem...

Ok...let me start by saying that I haven't been looking for a man, its just not in the big picture for me right now, but people like to ask me (and it doesn't bother me) when do i plan on dating again? Crazy huh. I mean my husband died 7 months ago on the 11th, and it has been pretty lonely. Its just that i wonder how long is the so called "waiting" period...what is considered right? In the "latin" culture, they want you to wait an eternity...I'm sure if it was up to my grandma or my "mother in law" they'd want me to wait till the kids were 18 and out of the house, but, umm yeah, i don't see that happening. Do u have any idea how crazy it is for me to realize that i was made a widow at the crazy age of 27?!?! That still throws me off...that just wasn't supposed to happen to me (ok, that's a whole other issue all together).

So, I remember my mother in law telling me (get a load of this) about a 4 days after her son had died, that she knew that I "had" to move on, that it was expected for me to find someone new and possibley remarry...ok??? I'm sure it is, however, I don't know if u see that I'm emotionally distraught here....um we haven't even burried the man yet and ur telling me this because????? Then a week later my sister in law repeats the same story...blah blah blah....i'm like, what the
f&*$??? Ok, so i guess they were mentally preparing themselves for that day, i dunno but at that time and place those comments did bother me, i mean, i expected stuff like that from other people, not them. Now the story has changed. Some of my family has heard my mother in law making comments about me dating and how it wouldn't be right, how it would be too soon... Again i have no idea where she gets this crap from, i'm not dating anyone...whatever. I just don't know why she doesn't just hit me up...maybe cuz she know's not to ask me anymore stupid questions (beleive me when I say, i've changed) I'm not that little girl who used to do and say what her husband wanted...Its all about me now and NO ONE is in charge of me but ME....

Anywho, along w/ the in law's, co-workers and friends have asked if i have thought about getting back into the dating scene again??? That i'm still really young and to not wait too long...(And no it doesn't bother that they ask anymore, i'm doing much better now and i'm coping better w/ my husbands death...) But I just say, i haven't been looking, I don't know, I guess i'll know when its time. But I'm sure SOMEONE will have something to say about it. I'm sure that there will always be whispers and gossip about what i do. Look, I feel that as long as i don't disrespect my children, my home or myself...I'll be fine. I don't care what anyone says...cuz last i checked Susie pays the mortgage, the bills and the car note honey....Yeah...I'm in charge of me!