This is me - now...

Up until December 11, 2004, I took life for granted. I never really expected to have my life change so abruptly and definietly not so dramatically. On December 11, 2004 I lost my lover, my partner, my bestfriend. I lost my husband...At the mere age of 27, I was now a widow with 4 small children. This is me now. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to prove and what am I really about. I thought I knew this already but losing him has been one of the biggest challenges I have been faced with...

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I'm passionate. I LOVE TO LAUGH. I'm strong yet emotional. I'm independent yet needy. I'm a dreamer...ALL I EVER DO IS DREAM....I feel it's time to start acting on these dreams and what ifs...It's time for a change.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Hello, my name is Soozie & I'm a Perv...

Ok...so i have to admit that I may be a pervert. Let me explain.

So, my boys (who are 8 & 6) go to Karate - actually its HapKido. Anywho, of course they have their instructors, black belts, who are either really cute kids (anywhere from 10 to 14 years old) or older adults...its all good though, my kids are learning a lot and have now advanced to yellow belt. Anyways, I didn't usually go to thier trainings cuz I work far and by the time I get there its already over, thier auntie takes em to class, that is until now : )

As I mentioned before, my kiddies have promoted to yellow belts, therefore, thier schedule changed and now its feasible for mommy to take em'. And then it happened. Umm... I had never seen Mr. G (we'll keep him annonymous for now). Mr. G is a double degree Black belt and he assists w/ the training of the yellow belts. Anywho, let me just say this: he is a PAPASOTE...translation= He is one FINE piece of work.... Ok, so what's the problem? Um...Mr. G can in no way be one day over 19...its just not happening. I bribed some of the kids into telling me how old he is but none of em gave me anything good. One of em said he was 19, another said he was 17 or 18....not good....

Even if Mr. G was 19...HELLOOOO I'm 28!!!! (although, a lot of folks say i look younger) is it wrong? yes it is...why am i even questioning this when i know its wrong. It's very very very wrong!! In my defense, I'll let you all know that Mr. G flirts w/ me...he's all nice to my kids and he's always smiling at me...even winked at me once (sigh)...but then i come back to reality and remember that he may be uhhhhh...UNDER AGE and then all i see is myself in a black and white jumper saying hi to my kids from behind a glass window...eeekkkkk!!!

I'm ashamed, that i "may" potentially be attracted to jail-bait...woe is me...ughh how depressing, i'm a perv....

5 Comments:

Blogger Caro said...

pass Mr. G over to lil miss carolina over here.
; )

2:50 PM  
Blogger SoozieQ said...

Nooooooooo fair, y should u youngens have all the fun?!?! LOL...

Shoot, girl, i'm trying to get my groove back, can't u see...ha ha.

3:16 PM  
Blogger Caro said...

tannia, soozie...where are youu finding these cuter, younger guys??

i certainly am not.

or maybe they're just not attracted to me so they run away at the sight of me. though i highly doubt that. lol

evelina, where are you finding these mature 19 year-olds.....though i suppose the fact that i'm a 35 year-old stuck in a 18 year-old's life doesnt help me, lol.

*sigh* back to my nunhood.

sooz....get your groove back girl!

12:05 AM  
Blogger Desiree said...

Girl, you dont know, he could be like uh, 20 LOL...nothing wrong with looking...

NOw, where is this class? I think my little brother and sister are interested in Hapkat or whatever you called it!

;P

9:52 AM  
Blogger Joanne said...

Hey Soozie - there is NOTHING wrong with looking, flirting, a little fantasizing... it's good for the heart. Gets the juices flowing... Hell, you know how many 28 yo (not to mention mother of 4) would die for a 19 yo to look at them?! Work it girl! Make him sweat - and not from karate!

8:52 AM  

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