UPDATE!!!

Fine! I'm here. Geez a girl goes away for a while and the peanut gallery goes crazy on ya!!! Yeah i threw that one right at cha' Tannia & Des...But really, i appologize for being M.I.A for a bit there, its just that work is crazy right now and these bastards don't let me catch up w/ my blog buddies...the nerve of these people huh...don't they know that i come here to use the internet and to blog...ughh, i tell u...anywho...here's my update:

Mr. G...(*sigh*) and i have started "talking" that's it...nothing less, nothing more. Its all been playful, innocent chatting. He's such a nice guy. Really, he is. He's polite, thoughtful, "mature" (yeah, i know), sweet and funny. Ok, he's got a lot of the characteristics that i love in a man. He loves to dance (and if u know me, I LOVE TO SHAKE what my momma gave me), and not only does he like to dance but he know's HOW TO DANCE...that in itself is a great accomplishement..ok, he's currently working at the studio training the little grasshoppers and he plans on going into the military next year. Ok, so another bit of info for u...my family is a military family, the step father, my uncle, both my brothers and my cousins are Marines (ooh raah baby). And what branch does Mr. G say he's going to enlist in??? yup, the MARINE CORP baby...do u see where we're going here? ok so, it seems like he's got a pretty good head on his shoulders up till now. And it definitely helps that he's a cutie! We all know about my bad boy fetish and the piercing thing...so that just tops it off.

So what could be the problem? Well, yeah its the age thing. He doesn't have a problem with my age but as much as I say that i don't care what people say....I do....why the hell do i care what others think? why? U know, i said that this was going to be one of the things that i changed about myself...u know, not caring about what people think...but its harder than i thought. I'm not worried about my kids because like i said before, they come first and my main goal is to respect my home and my children. I will never flaunt anything in front of them. so they're not the issue here. Ok, so nothing's out in the open and believe me it won't be cuz my "in-laws" wouldn't understand it. Even though we're not doing anything, they wouldn't be too keen on the idea. I'm sure they would think it was too soon and he's too young...the thing is that honestly, i like his company. he's intersting and funny...and amazingly, pretty mature for his age. The other thing i think about are his parents. Would i be ok with it if my son was dating an older woman? I dunno. I say no now but is that really true? U know, my brother who is 30 was dating a 19 year old and no one really gave a hoot. No one gave him drama, well actually i made fun of him and look what i'm going through now. But what i mean is, that it seems like its much more accepted among men.

So I've decided to just have fun with this guy. Ok pervs get ur head out the gutter. I didn't mean it like"fun, fun" but u know, just see where this road takes us. I'm not about to "fall in love" with anyone, i'm just not ready for that, but i do like the company and the conversations. I also know that he'll be going away so why would i get caught up right? I say we just kick it and have fun...no harm in that. But why oh why do i have that funky feeling about what people will say?? Uggghhhh , its sooo frustrating!!!