This is me - now...

Up until December 11, 2004, I took life for granted. I never really expected to have my life change so abruptly and definietly not so dramatically. On December 11, 2004 I lost my lover, my partner, my bestfriend. I lost my husband...At the mere age of 27, I was now a widow with 4 small children. This is me now. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to prove and what am I really about. I thought I knew this already but losing him has been one of the biggest challenges I have been faced with...

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I'm passionate. I LOVE TO LAUGH. I'm strong yet emotional. I'm independent yet needy. I'm a dreamer...ALL I EVER DO IS DREAM....I feel it's time to start acting on these dreams and what ifs...It's time for a change.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Play on Playette....

Ok first of all...i'm still feeling like crap...well not as bad as Tuesday, but pretty bad. I sound like a frog and my throat still hurts. I forgot my drugs today so i wasn't able to medicate myself to the point where i'm all smiles and not giving a f*ck....yeah, its a swell day...ok now for the real business...

Mr. G...oh, Mr. G. This little bastard is starting to work my nerves. He's playing games. Now I know, I know...u may ask urselves..what the f*ck? what happened Soozie? Everything was going so perrrty...Yeah, that's right it WAS going perrtty...Then i started catching on to his shinanigans. Now let me tell u, YOU CAN NOT BULLSHIT A BULLSHITTER!! Its not happening and we all know that Soozie girl has got some years on her little boy toy, therefore he should tread these waters lightly. Its all good though, he thinks he's slick and he thinks he can play games w/ me...oh honey, i'm going to have a field day w/ his a$$.

Young Mr. G thinks that he can play the "playa" card on me. He thinks he can "stand me up" yes u heard it "stand me up" and then get in good w/ me like nothing happened? Ummm....I don't think so. NOT only is there major ass kissing required here but payback, OHHH, payback is a BIAAATCH and so am i. U see...u have to act like everything is ok, act like u forgive and like "nothing happened" then when u get em' right where u want em' and BAAAM u just shut em down. See its funny cuz we were supposed to go out last Saturday and then when Saturday came around he danced around it and all of a sudden had a million and one things to do and so on and so forth...its cool...no problem here, i'm understanding and kind...(wink wink, nudge nudge). But don't try to call me the next day and make EXCUSES...then when we're at the studio, he's just a barrel of conversation and he's go sooo much to talk about but does he call me? Nope...no phone calls...lots of text messages, but no phone calls. Hmm? sounds like he's doing some overtime somewhere else huh?

Now for all of u who think im upset or pissy cuz i feel like he's running around town with other chicks (which i know he is) I'm not. I don't care...just don't lie to me and tell me ur NOT seeing anyone or "TALKING" to anyone when U R...its a respect issue people. Its a communication thing. Look, i aint gonna lie, the little bastard has it going on, he's finer than a muther!!! so its expected for him to have the masses swooning over him...just don't waste my time and try and PLAY ME honey...oh no...look if u wanna get some, sh*t we're adults here...lets talk about it, its not like the thought hasn't crossed our minds RIGHT, RIGHT...(doesn't mean he'll get lucky that easily) but come on...don't try and play me...

It's really funny to me cuz i grew up around this stuff. My brother's are both dogs in their own rights and proud of it. I saw "their game" and how they work it. Shit, i'm not proud of it (ok, maybe a tad) but i got game too baby...i've done some damage in my day too so u know i can read thru ur bullsh*t any day. Its a power that i am proud to have inherrited from the bro's...thanks guys! But really...we'll see what happens w/ young Mr. G.

He's in for a lesson....U wanna play with the big girls mijo? Get ready to have ur ass handed to u. I would like to quote this really cute tee i got at the mall right about now:

on the front: I'M THE ONE
on the back: ...that ur momma warned u about.

I think I'll wear it tonight at the studio.

9 Comments:

Blogger Caro said...

game, game, game, game.

i'm tired of the thug life.

unfortunetly for me, the thugs are very attracted to me and i feel no attraction to them. i likemy boys white and wearing abercrombie or lacoste....what can i say?

my dating game is so difficult....i have to beat off the guys sptting game then try and use my own to get the white boys...bah!

play on playette.

1:04 AM  
Blogger Karla said...

LOL....I LOVE the t-shirt in fact i might need to buy one of those..lol..bueno on the whole guy thing i say do your thing girl show him who he is messing with.

6:42 AM  
Blogger SoozieQ said...

Que paso Caro? no te gustan los brownies? lol...

7:03 AM  
Blogger Caro said...

lol. haha

haha.

my first class of the day was cancelled!

i could have slept more! lol

10:31 AM  
Blogger Jessica R. said...

Wow - well leave it to a guy to be a boy! That's the thing with these good looking guys - they know it and use it. Except I do know an exception - my BF's friend who is a light Dominican - 24 years old he's HOT!! He works out he's built and he's so cute. He would get any girl he wanted. Thing is he has like a million sisters and is so shy - so he doesn't really know how to act or talk to girls - and when he does have the chance he treats them with so much respect and they break it off with him cuz they want bad boys - what's wrong with us women? If I were a little younger and single i would totally go for him - he's so sweet and generous - literally the nicest guy. We just need to find him a nice girl...is that possible in NY anymore?

10:52 AM  
Blogger Caro said...

oooo....set him up with irene!

10:58 AM  
Blogger Desiree said...

That little punk. Yeah girl. Play on.

3:14 PM  
Blogger Karla said...

Jessica: hook a girl up! Ok i am not in NY anymore but we can work around that:)

6:40 AM  
Blogger Joanne said...

LOVE that shirt, mija! And, you're right. It is a respect thing, in my opinion more than anything else. And, people for whom I've lost respect because of their stupid behaviors deserve what they've got coming to them... a swift kick in the culo!

12:25 PM  

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