He brought back memories...
I'm not having a good day. Yeah, its Friday and all...but i feel really sad. I want to scream, i want to cry and oddly i'm pretty much pissed off...its wierd, i guess i don't want to be sad and i want to suppress my feelings.
Its been a wierd week actually. I swear its like my husband is trying to connect w/ me. I miss him soooo much and i'm really feeling it right now. U know i have good days and bad days and I can pretty much handle these feelings. I don't break down easily, i don't cry easily...i seem to have gotten a handle over my emotions. Its just that i guess today they're catching up to me.
So the straw that broke "my" back was one of my co-workers, he wrote a poem (i say he's in love, but he says he's just expressing himself...SURE) but really, he had some downtime and wrote a poem. He sent it to me cuz i love reading his stuff and then he did it...he got to me. I swear its like an excerpt of a page in my life. I swear I have lived that moment w/ my husband and its one of those memories that is burned into ur heart and brain FOREVER....i would love to share it w/ u guys, here it is:
When you called my name, I awoke from slumber. Laying my eyes on you for the first time my heart tensed. We chatted incessantly on trivial matters, but the moment was anything but trivial. I remembered how your smile captivated me. I responded with squinting eyes and blushing smiles. I lingered to reach out and touch you. I wanted to brush your hair away from your eyes, but the wind was more confident. I turned to look at you but you were lost in deep thoughts. I wanted my heart to speak, but the words could not escape. You said you had to go and my heart softened. You assured me with a smile and I replied with a wave. I watched you walked away and my legs wanted to give chase, but my languishing heart could not endure. SC
Quite the writer huh, yeah, he made me choke up....and if ur reading this "Mr. SC" u suck...but its all good...i got this. Anyways.....just wanted to vent.
~I miss u babe.....
Its been a wierd week actually. I swear its like my husband is trying to connect w/ me. I miss him soooo much and i'm really feeling it right now. U know i have good days and bad days and I can pretty much handle these feelings. I don't break down easily, i don't cry easily...i seem to have gotten a handle over my emotions. Its just that i guess today they're catching up to me.
So the straw that broke "my" back was one of my co-workers, he wrote a poem (i say he's in love, but he says he's just expressing himself...SURE) but really, he had some downtime and wrote a poem. He sent it to me cuz i love reading his stuff and then he did it...he got to me. I swear its like an excerpt of a page in my life. I swear I have lived that moment w/ my husband and its one of those memories that is burned into ur heart and brain FOREVER....i would love to share it w/ u guys, here it is:
When you called my name, I awoke from slumber. Laying my eyes on you for the first time my heart tensed. We chatted incessantly on trivial matters, but the moment was anything but trivial. I remembered how your smile captivated me. I responded with squinting eyes and blushing smiles. I lingered to reach out and touch you. I wanted to brush your hair away from your eyes, but the wind was more confident. I turned to look at you but you were lost in deep thoughts. I wanted my heart to speak, but the words could not escape. You said you had to go and my heart softened. You assured me with a smile and I replied with a wave. I watched you walked away and my legs wanted to give chase, but my languishing heart could not endure. SC
Quite the writer huh, yeah, he made me choke up....and if ur reading this "Mr. SC" u suck...but its all good...i got this. Anyways.....just wanted to vent.
~I miss u babe.....
posted by SoozieQ | Friday, October 14, 2005
9 Comments:
Sounds like you need a hug. Come here, you. As of 40-some minutes ago, I declared this Jonny R. Nat'l Hug Day. The 3rd Saturday in October. So gimme a gawdamn hug! Keep on truckin'!
awww.
that was sweet and nicely done.
thank you for sharing!
we need to get together sometime!!
Awww that was a beautiful poem, thank you for sharing it with us.
I liked the poem. Your friend has talent :)
Cheer up!
Caro's right. I'd like to be included.
Yes, yes, yes...we do need to get together. Lets work on something ok.
Youre all talk, no action!!
;)
is there life on this blog???
come on girl, update, whats going on?
Soozie, where are you chica? Come back let is know that you are ok. Update.
Ok it's going on a month - hope you're ok - come back to us!!!
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