This is me - now...

Up until December 11, 2004, I took life for granted. I never really expected to have my life change so abruptly and definietly not so dramatically. On December 11, 2004 I lost my lover, my partner, my bestfriend. I lost my husband...At the mere age of 27, I was now a widow with 4 small children. This is me now. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to prove and what am I really about. I thought I knew this already but losing him has been one of the biggest challenges I have been faced with...

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I'm passionate. I LOVE TO LAUGH. I'm strong yet emotional. I'm independent yet needy. I'm a dreamer...ALL I EVER DO IS DREAM....I feel it's time to start acting on these dreams and what ifs...It's time for a change.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Monday Bliss...

So I had an awsome 4 day weekend. Friday I was off and Monday was a holiday...well at least for us civil servants who are blessed to have every freaking "holiday" in the calendar off. oh yes, these are the times i love working for the city baby!! however, coming back was a b*tch...there were tons of messages to get back to and the work, oh the work...well lets just say, i really should be catching up right about now instead of posting..hehe...

So what's new? Well i got bangs...yeah,i had been toying w/ the idea for a couple of months. everytime i went to get my hair done i asked my hairstylist to have my bangs frame my face, right about the cheeks, ok now have em sweep under my eye, u know about nose level and then i did it. i got couragous and just said, "girl, just do it, give me bangs." i like em, my hair is still layered however i got bangs. i look like j-lo in the "aint that funny - remix video" lol...or another version at least...

Ok and now for the important news. Monday was actually a pretty nice day. I hung out w/ Mr. G. all day. I had told him that I didn't have to work and he asked me to come over and kick it? Since they're still in that whole moving transition stage, no one would be home and he'd have the house all to himself. Well...what's a girl to think? I was stressing ~ should i go??? should i just politely back out and say i'm busy???? well thanks to all of ur suggestions, oh who the hell am i kidding, I just said f*ck it, what is there to lose except time and we've wasted a lot of that already...so i said sure, i'll be there.

I got there around 9 or so and he had breakfast ready...ahhh...we went up to his room (ok stop thinking what ur thinking) and chilled. i'm serious, we got comfy on his bed (i swear it has to be the most comfortable matress i've ever laid on)cuddled and just talked. I swear, hours went by and all we did was talk and laugh and just chill. it was great. he kept making me laugh, touching my face, kissing my forhead, my hands, my cheek...he was such a sweetheart. i was waiting for him to make a pass at me or put his hands somewhere but he didn't. i was very surprised. we did kiss and u know how i love that, but he didn't try anything funny. I had a great time. We were supposed to go to lunch or catch a movie but we never left the room. its so true that you lose track of time when ur enjoying urself...we're supposed to get together again soon. when i asked why he hadn't tried anything, he replied "i'm not trying to rush u." I'm figuring this is working out nicely. he doing and saying all the right things so far...so we'll see.

I don't expect much to come out of this, i told him that i'm going to just let things work out as they may. Don't worry, i'm not about to get "caught up" or "sprung", i'm well aware of the situation, so i'm just going to let things happen and take advantage of the couple of weeks he's going to be around.

5 Comments:

Blogger Desiree said...

How cute he is. Ha! My man said the same thing, about not rushing me. These younger men these days know what the hell they're doing ha?

11:07 AM  
Blogger SoozieQ said...

i'm telling u girl. what's up w/ that. he's supposed to say somthing immature right? CRAZY... our youth today...oh well i'm enjoying it..ha!

12:15 PM  
Blogger Desiree said...

I'm glad you're enjoying :)

3:36 PM  
Blogger Caro said...

yay for the youth today!

lol.

not really.

i hate us.....we're consumer driven and petty and complete products of the technology that surrounds us.

damn us, the mtv generation! damn us!

ok.....i'm done, lol.

i LOVE that mr. G is so cool, so rare and i love that you found such a great youngin.

1:45 AM  
Blogger Joanne said...

Hooray for nice young men... They seem to be so few and far between, but good for you that you've found one! Even if you are just hanging out... :-)

9:43 AM  

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