The Holidays Begin!

So like an insane person i woke up Friday moring and went SHOPPING!!! and by 5 am we were out and about. now, its crazy cuz some people really take this serious! I got to the mall at 5:20 am...can you believe people were already LEAVING with 3 to 4 bags full of stuff in each hand. its like they're on a mission to get to the next store PRONTO! so that's cool and all, but what about the people who have thier newborn babies w/ them or the ones w/ the 2 year old all bundled up in a stroller. Now thats just wrong, poor babies. Anywho, i got a lot done. Not like years in the past where i'm one of those fools who's shopping last minute, even up to the night before trying to get presents....nope not this year, i'm ahead of the game!!! there's only a handful of people i need to get presents for and then i'm set.

So Thanksgiving was nice and quiet. Kind of sad and a bit nostalgic...trying to get through the 1st of everything w/o the hubby around. Thanksgiving is kind of sad cuz its the last holiday he was around for. The boys kept saying things like, "my daddy sat in that chair last year", "daddy was watching football last year", "daddy loved pumpkin pie", so u can imagine how we felt, but this time unlike any other, we decided to not mourn him but remember him. we started telling stories about the past and instead of cyring, we actually laughed. I know he would want that, he wouldn't want us to be depressed.

Well before i go, i wanted to list the things i was thankful for....(didn't get a chance to do it last week) so here we go:

I am thankful for:
1) Andrew, Aaron, Alyssa & Arianna (my babies)

2) God ~ for not forgetting about me and taking care of me. letting me know that i will be ok...

3) rolling around on the ground w/ my kids, chasing them, laughing w/ or at them (yeah i'm mean), playing w/ them, getting hugs and kisses from them, hearing them say "i love u mommy" or "mommy, ur so pretty", cuddling in bed and trying to squeeze 4 kids in w/ me in a queen sized bed...

4) My family...the greatest support system ever. w/o them i don't know what i would have done!

5) Real friends...there for me no matter what! Making me smile, when i cried. Listening to me vent about all my issues (Lord know i sure have issues), never judging me and still loving me no matter what stupid thing i've done...(Karen, Carlos and Jaz I LOVE U)

6) Being blessed w/ good health, a good job, nice home, nice car, and all around good life, regardless of what challenges life brings me.

7) and last but certainly not least: Tannia!!! for introducing me to the blogger world...for introducing me to all of you who have listened to me and let me vent and let me express myself. Thanks to all of you for your kind words and thoughts.

I hope all of you had a great Thanksgiving!!!

Hey blogger buddies. Yes, its me, the stranger. I know, i've been MIA, but geez its been a crazy month....yes i saw that i haven't posted in a MONTH....whats up w/ that? Well i've been busy (haven't we all?) and I, like many am going thru my "i'm not interesting" phase. I just feel like i've nothing "interesting" to write about. I'm at a loss for words...i need a muse! That's what i've come up w/. I need inspiration.

Thank you to all my buds that were worried about me, but i'm ok. Let me fill u in on some personal stuff (well not too personal, ~wink, ~wink, *nudge, *nudge). Before u ask, yes Mr. G is still in the picture. He's such a sweetheart. We've been hanging out a lot lately. U know, movies, mc donalds, mo-mo...Ehhhhhh, just kidding....what kind of girl do u think i am???? well ok i may have done that back in the day but not anymore, no sir, i have standards now...but really, lets stay focused here...ok so we've been hanging out and its cool, cuz its the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE that i've not become attached to someone (or so i would like to believe). Let me tell u a bit about myself. I always "dated" guys who were boyfriend material. I didn't mess w/u unless i thought u were a keeper.None of this hooking up or dating stuff. And let me also say that since the young age of 14 (when i started dating) i've never been single... Yeah, NEVER. I was always the girl w/ a boyfriend or at least had em' lined up if i needed one. And they were long relationships, i think the shortest time w/ a guy was 8 months or something....anywho, I've always been "taken care of or spoken for." So I don't really know what it means to do the whole casual dating thing. I always given 110% of myself when in a relationship, so Mr. G would be the first guy who i'm not thinking "commitment" or "boyfriend" or "in-love". Don't get me wrong, i could totally fall for him. He's awsome, but i have to keep in mind that A) he's really young and there's a WHOLE world of adventure waiting for him in the future. B) he's moving! C) If he wasn't moving, he's still leaving to the Marines! so you see, i can't become attached. I won't allow it!

I want to say that he did mess things up by staying and not leaving when he was SUPPOSED to have left. I did my whole goodbye thing and now that i like him a tad bit more, its going to be really hard to say goodbye. So that's why i don't want to get attached, that's why i'm playing it safe and oddly keeping him at arms length...he knows it too. We had one conversation about it and dropped it. We're just going to have fun as long as we're together. We're going to not think about it and just kick it!

PS: Yeah, don't tell anyone, but i'm going to miss him...ughhhh, why did he have to be soooo damn cute!