This is me - now...

Up until December 11, 2004, I took life for granted. I never really expected to have my life change so abruptly and definietly not so dramatically. On December 11, 2004 I lost my lover, my partner, my bestfriend. I lost my husband...At the mere age of 27, I was now a widow with 4 small children. This is me now. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to prove and what am I really about. I thought I knew this already but losing him has been one of the biggest challenges I have been faced with...

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I'm passionate. I LOVE TO LAUGH. I'm strong yet emotional. I'm independent yet needy. I'm a dreamer...ALL I EVER DO IS DREAM....I feel it's time to start acting on these dreams and what ifs...It's time for a change.

Friday, January 06, 2006

HOLA EVERYBODY!!!

Geeez Louise!! u'd think i could drop a line once in a while huh? What's up ya'll!!! I've missed all of you. I've been a bad blogger buddy, i know it...but i'm going to try and be better, AT LEAST try and post once a week...its just this whole playing "supervisor" thing is kicking my a$$!!! It sucks. ANYWHO enough about work! Lets update all of you on the exciting life of Soozie! hee hee...

Sooo had a decent Christmas and New Year ~ (glad the holidays are over)umm, yeah still bitter about not having the hubby here...don't know when i'll get over it and the holidays don't help since he died in Dec...so u can imagine how "scroogy" i was...anyways, got nice presents...diamond bracelet, coach wallet, suede coat...the family rocks...they love me...ahhh!

Been spending time w/ my cutie, Mr. G. He's so cute. He's a sweetheart, i love spending time w/ him. He's sweet and hella funny! Just does random stupid~funny things to make me laugh. He's EXTRA sweet to my kids, the twins love him...he's always playing w/ them and buying them little treats like chips and candy...EVEN WHEN I TELL HIM NOT TO...he's kind of stubborn now that i think about it..hmmm??? But all in all, yes he's STILL around, oh and get this....him leaving? yeah that's up in the air...says he just might stick around, doesnt want to move out to Palmdale. Probably going to get a place w/ his bestfriend and then take off to the Marines. So he could leave, he could not...sucks really, but not worrying about that! Going to enjoy him while he's still here.

Sooooo nothing TOO exciting happening...just same ol' stuff. Got a couple of resolutions...we'll see how long i can stick to these..HA!!!

1) WORK OUT and GET TONED by May...don't need to lose weight but want to tighten up the abs, legs and a$$! Highschool Reunion in May...must have the EX and all the annoying biatches hate me more for looking as good as I do!! (can u say vain)????

2) HAVE MORE PATIENCE!!!

3) GET MORE ORGANIZED!...i think i was wallowing in self pity after my husband's death and i just stopped giving a hoot about stuff...so have to get back on track and get financially organized. No i'm not in debt or anything like that, just want to start investing more money and not spend money like its water..u know that kind of stuff.

I think that was it? At least the ones i think i can stick to...if i think up anyother ones, i'll relay them to u guys. So that's all for now. gotta start working, i leave early today so i have to get "some" work done. Alrighty...

HOPE EVEYRONE HAS AN AWESOME YEAR...I WISH EVERYONE NOTHING BUT AWESOME STUFF...DON'T BREAK YOUR RESOLUTIONS OK!!!!
MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAHHHHH!!! BIG HUGS AND KISSES....Laters!